Point of being wrecked?

guys it takes only so much that a guy can handle until he can be wrecked, and this , is my story. So i had a "best friend" that is a girl, it didn't bother me she was a girl since she seemed like a unique true friend, turned out i was wrong. After this friend started talking about my cousin ( a girl) i grew tired enough to tell my cousin that she should stop trying to be her friend since she doesn't like her, so we go to a party one day , no surprise, i got drunk and my "best friend" leaves me there , alone, calling me a du-m-b *** which i suppose was true , my cousin on the other hand stays by my side , aides me and doesn't let me go , what hurt the most was that my bestfriend left me to go dance with a guy she had been talking crap about and who was her ex and who she said she would never talk 2 then when she's over there on his . Next day at school , "best friend" writes me a note, the note turns out to be her telling me that she's mad she tried taking care of me and i that "i got mad " because of it, so basically shes saying my cousin left me to rot and she took care of me, crap. after this tension began builiding up and eventually it started, she began to treat me like crap and suprsingly, talk about me with other people, that ended my world, for so long i have known her she was like family our families went to parties together she told me everything she was like a sister, so i figure out she was indeed talking crap and instead of sinking down to talking crap about her, i just ignore it, next day of school , i was in the cafteria with my cousin when i see her marching my way and she takes of her bag as if she wants to fight, she says, "can we talk" and i say "yeah but let's go to the corner i don't want people to get in our business and i grab her hand and she yells "don't f-u-c-k-e-n touch me" and i got shocked and she starts yelling at me so i reply "you know what you can talk to me when your not gonna scream" and i leave. Next day tension continues so much that i decide to go to the counsler instead of getting into a conflict with her, after all i'm a guy she's a girl. So at the counsler, this girl starts crying making me and my cousin look like total s, it got me mad but i let it go and i told her to stop making me choose sides between her and my cousin, my cousin is family and i would never go against her, but this pissed her off and she started telling me i hang out too much with her which i think is a stupid thing to get mad over, and so i say lets just forget all this and let's not loose our friendship, which she replys with "i don't want to have anything to do with you ever or your cousin" i t shocked me, how could she do this! what a true friend hugh! so next day i come to school to see that half of my friends aren't talking to me, it resulted to be because of her, it pissed me off! one of my really good friends also stopped talking to me because of her, they started talking about me 24/7 all this time i just ignored it, then came the day when my ex and my "Ex bestfriend" started talking, together they would go around the school calling me a ****** and saying i have no , this is when i grew tired, i got no problem against gays and i'm secure enough of my uality to know it's not true, but now everytime i go up to a girl that i like they think i'm gay. so i go to my ex best friends house and i tell her mom to watch her daughter because one day i'll grow tired and do something i'll regret, she promises she will. Next dat the little girl goes and while i'm walking past her she screams out "******" and i think to myself "wtf did i do why the f-u-c-k won't she leave me alone" so it contiunes and i keep on ignoreing it, a month has pes since then and the situation only gets worst, she planned out to jump me , I didn't believe it until i log on to my myspace and i see a messege, it's from on of my good friends, i read it and get even more schocked reading what it says, that i'm a ****** that im the only boy virgin she knows that she's gonna fight me and jump me because of my ex best friend" i grew furious but did not reaspond, instead i went to my dean, there they called her down and she apologized and i saw she was sincere, and i let it go. A week later, my ex and my ex bestfriend keep talking about me and lots of people don't like me. i say who the hell cares you know? but then it go to the point where today as i was walking, my EXgirlfriend pes by and calls me a , that was it, after 3 months of holiding it in, i went off, i replied with "what ever dike" and went down the stairs where she followed and said to say it to her face, i did and she called me out but my friend held me back and i just left, we were all going to lunch, so i walk in the cafeteria only to see her come up to MY TABLE and call me out again, she told me that she's gonna "******" me up and it was infront of 300 + people where she yelled out "you damn ****** your ******-e-n gay and you aren't a man" i got so embaressed and so mad i said "you know your damn words don't mean a f-u-c-k- to me you damn f-u-c-k-e-n " then she said she didn't care i was a boy she would fight me then and there, so i say "run up then do it i aint scared and not about to fight a girl" so she says "thats cuz your a " and it just ruined my world, 300 people saw it and started laughing at me, everyone wouldn't stop stareing, i actaulyl wanted to cry which is hard to make me do, all the girls laughed at me and there goes my chances with any girl, i feel bad, dead i want to die why can't they just f-u-k off i don't know what to do what if they start stuff with my cousin and all of this and i mean all is because of my "ex bestfriend' she won't leave my life alone, what the he-l-l should i do